To the person I should not be thinking about this very moment while saying this:
I don't even know if this feeling is right... or wrong for that matter. It's like what my friend said me and you are totally wrong together but I only see the odd "right" in this. I feel completely queezy when seeing you with the other guy, even though I am supposed to have grown up from my previous bad experiences already. I didn't lie to myself, I truly have grown up, but seeing you like this right infront of me for the past couple week has really digged up my true feelings toward this matter. You're going away tomorrow and I am not even trying to pursue you... at all. I am not ready for any commitments again. Blame me for not handling this well. I thought love is wishing all the best for the other, but in reality it is very hard to do. The better I get to know you, the furuher I feel I am pushing myself away from you. Hate me for me. Tomorrow you are going to get something you probably wouldn't expect to get from me. The end for this unexpecting summer crush arrives, and here is the end to the short story with tragic ending.
發表於 2006-6-18 19:24:39
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